If I could rewrite history, a few pages from my
life,

I'd find myself a place in time before I was a mother
or a wife.

I'd pick as my new starting point, a time when I was free,

To do the things I wanted to, when there was only me....................

I know it may sound selfish, to express such a
desire

It's just that all life's problems are crushing out my
fire!!

That sparkle that should be there, when you look into
my eyes,

Has been replaced by blankness from living all these lies.

So if I could go back now, there are things I'd change it's true

Because there are so many things I wish that I could do.

I'd think about my future, not be in such a rush,

To hurry out into the world and join the mad
crush........

The frenzy of the daily grind and the routine boring stuff

Where worries are consuming, and problems can be tough

I think I'd take some time off, to find out who I
am inside

Then perhaps my life would not feel like a roller coaster ride........

I think that I would go to school and learn how to become

A person of some real worth and how to overcome

The problems and the feelings that haunt me from my
past

That I might find a little peace and happiness at
last.

And after I had found myself, and got my career on
the right track

Perhaps I'd see my future as rosie
and not black.

And if I were just fortunate enough, to find someone like you to love

I know for sure that I'd been blessed by heaven up above.

And I hope that you'd forgive me if I was a bit reserved and guarded too

Because I have been hurt so much, so many times like you.

But since this is just a dream and you can only move ahead

I suppose somehow I'll "muddle" through, though I feel as though
I'm dead.

And I will wake tomorrow with the same sadness as today

Because past mistakes do catch up and demand of you to pay.

So be careful of your choices, for when each one is made

You cannot change it's outcome until all your dues are paid!!